tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-34386627989478594082024-03-05T12:00:30.631-05:00ToMySonTommyLetters to my son, that I hope he reads some day.Leo Downeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11098341844131756739noreply@blogger.comBlogger878125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3438662798947859408.post-64164068577268081032022-05-21T07:28:00.001-04:002022-05-21T07:28:27.167-04:00Birthday Catch Up<p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh5GNpstRZhkRqrKvLuG2-dTxyIbsLLq0KMwDObdtkmAoRDVjW9pkG_KFSP3X9efo0sjGoGFvcM4s0o0MxzqPjgSVriKa7qbNRuEjYw14AfxMgUf9H-pwL4HMWDk045M1HTI8vIPs-4Ksk73dQr1sLKEWsCAHpmyP_Tt8axH_2k-QBWWgRsfFNimvUsvw/s4032/8C504892-E82F-4FED-969F-CAC467680F30.jpeg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4032" data-original-width="3024" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh5GNpstRZhkRqrKvLuG2-dTxyIbsLLq0KMwDObdtkmAoRDVjW9pkG_KFSP3X9efo0sjGoGFvcM4s0o0MxzqPjgSVriKa7qbNRuEjYw14AfxMgUf9H-pwL4HMWDk045M1HTI8vIPs-4Ksk73dQr1sLKEWsCAHpmyP_Tt8axH_2k-QBWWgRsfFNimvUsvw/s320/8C504892-E82F-4FED-969F-CAC467680F30.jpeg" width="240" /></a></div><br /><span style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></span><p></p><p><span style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></span></p><p><span style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">To the grandchildren of my father,</span></p><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">I am hijacking today’s letter from you guys to write out one to your granddad. It will be a long letter, so as you guys find this when you are older, I would understand if you skipped it. Just some mushy emotional recaps written to a person who has no way of reading these words. Not even sure why I feel compelled. But I do hope you guys understand.</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><div>Sincerely with love from your dad,</div><div>Leo</div></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">To dad,</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">Happy heavenly birthday. You would have been 74 today. Hard to believe it has been five years and a couple months since you left this earthly existence. I miss you most every day, or at least when I can find time to quiet my mind and ponder the important things in life.</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">Mom is doing surprisingly well. She is lucid and mentally stable as of recently. We made some adjustments on her med list and one day she just came around again, ending a ten year plus battle of what we figured was the end slide down dementia lane or Alzheimer’s hill. I know that you spent a good amount of your final years worrying about her and trying to get the doctors to take the decline seriously. I spent a good amount of my years after you passed doing the same. The doctors have noted the drastic improvement, but can’t really explain the change that made the difference. Cassie and I have our theories, but it is really was pure happenstance that we took her off a few meds that were screwing her up and found one that works wonders for her. Did you have any influence up there?</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">I mean mom still has her difficulties. She has a bunch of medical issues still. We have tons of doctors visits and such to keep in our busy schedule, but at least the trips contain an awake and aware companion now. And mom is still mom. The meds didn’t change any of her personality difficulties, but I try my hardest (some days harder than others) to live up to my promise to you to be nice to your wife. </div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">The hardest part for Ro is very few people visit her. She is lonely without you. But now with her increased mental acuity, your granddaughters spend a good amount of time enjoying her company. She is doing puzzles with them and teaching them card games.</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">Cassie misses you plenty as well. She often ponders what life would be like for us and our kids if you hadn’t gotten brain cancer. When I think of you and her, what comes to mind is the image of you with a tear of joy in your eye telling me how you always wanted a daughter as well as a son and how you were so happy she was in our lives and you worried if you would know how to be a father to a daughter. Well if her love for you is any indication, you did a fine job.</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">Cassie’s bone cancer is still in remission, at least according to all the scans and doctors following it. Still, she is in pain most days of her life. The doctors say it is enthesitis due to her Crohn’s disease and say it has lesions on the spine and hip areas. She often soldiers on through the pain and pretends we can’t see. She is such a strong woman and a loving wife and mother and daughter-in-law. Even through the pain, she is the glue that keeps the family together and sane. Definitely one of my better decisions in life to marry her. A blind squirrel finds a nut every now and then.</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">Your oldest grandchild has been having a hard time of it late. He got this coughing thing that kept him out of school for almost the entire month of April. The latest from the doctors is that it started as something, probably viral, may have went on to become bacterial, and then cleared and now his spasmodic cough is a learned behavior. So now we are treating with just throat lozenges when the coughing fit occurs. He still has coughing fits, just had one two nights ago. Not the three hour ones like before but even watching your child struggle like that, with breathing, for 15 minutes is difficult. I worry that he might have this his whole life. Not sure I buy the doctors’ assessments. Think they are selling us some BS and just don’t want to admit that they should look deeper. I guess all their years of medical education and training has tired them out and they just want to deal with the easy things they already have answers for. I am not saying I don’t trust doctors or medical science because then I’d be joining a sadly large part of today’s society who follow conspiracy theories and hateful misinformation. All I am is saying is that I better understand those people especially when you meet those egotistical doctors who have to be right and who forget that science is the search for answers and must be questioned and challenged at all time. Though I am jaded, you raised me with enough common sense to not fall for charlatans selling bleach cures and horse dewormers and off label use for other meds like malaria cures.</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">Other than that Tommy is doing pretty well. He loves all things musical. He still plays the sax and is learning piano and hopes to sing his self into a high school magnet school in a year and a half when he goes for 9th grade. He is just finishing up seventh grade now. He is also such a kind hearted young man. I worry that he is a little too kind and a little too naive to carry on the Downey name. We have had enough people in our Downey line who realized that some people deserve a good pop in the nose and would use that technique and so few people in life that have tried pure kindness with no backup plan for violence. Maybe it is time to try that manner for the Downey men.</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">As for the girls, well you would have had some fun with them. And they would have enjoyed the heck out of you. They have such fun personalities, or at least that is what I realize when I take a step back from the times they are frustrating me as a parent. You know that instinct I mentioned Tom is missing? That instinct to resort to mild violence to settle things? Well they sure have that Downey thing. I try to do what a parent should do by stopping it, it is just hard when my own instinct is to laugh because the other twin deserves what she got! But lord help anyone else who messes with one twin, because the other is right there at her defense. Even when I try to discipline one for hitting the other, I get it both barrels back from the twins.</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">They go to pre-K 4 next year. They are attending with Tommy at St Agnes School because T wanted one year they attend the same school. Not sure what we will do when it comes to kindergarten. Sort of depends on how that school rebounds when it gets its next principal. But for now, I get to dread that the two of them walking into a Catholic school and deciding on vigilante justice for a stolen toy or an accidental push. Lord help us. Hehe.</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">As for your only son, well I am doing. Trying to quit smoking again. I picked it up again a couple a years ago with some bullshit lie to myself about stress and growing up with you and mom smoking as my example. Just rationalizations that don’t stand muster. Taking a med called Chantix right now. A side effect is it takes any and all fleeting thoughts and emotions, mixes them in a large salad bowl, and serves them up for your dreams. Flashbacks and fragments come to me when I wake. Somehow, last night during my dreams, you were driving a jeep (maybe on a a safari?) and I was in the back and you said something that pissed me off and told you I wasn’t above punching you straight in the head even while you were driving. You (being a dream) said “Good luck with that. See how that works out for you.” The dream continued in multiple directions and at the end we were not at odds, but like I said only fragments come back.</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">Other than that, I really miss you. I am so proud to be your son and try to live up to the caliber of man that you were while still be true to me. It is difficult. Life is difficult. When ever I complained about things being hard, you’d say, “Don’t worry it will get worse.” Not sure if you were trying to be funny, or pointing out that complaining didn’t help, or foreshadowing the eventuality of death. Probably some of all three. But you always said life is hard. </div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">You made it seem easy, at least from my vantage point growing up From this point in my life, I realize all the things I did to make it difficult. Don’t know if I ever said sorry for those. I miss you dad. Feel free anytime to stop in to my crazy dreams or just to come down and be present in our lives and in our hearts and look out for us from the great beyond. I love you. Happy birthday.</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><div>Sincerely with love from your son and father to your grandkids,</div><div>Leo</div></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><br class="Apple-interchange-newline" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;" />Leo Downeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11098341844131756739noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3438662798947859408.post-27481748501647674762022-04-06T15:14:00.008-04:002022-04-06T15:18:08.497-04:00Barking Cough<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiEnX-Qh-7_nuQV2f5R-Bkf8JQJ4u-gcIhrlFlQugBD4CFlfO8j0g7EIl2VEXNXbsAAFd9ccaTiC_SUN9k5rCs_dfljmgZd9sLtQKNi3rkHalKPFyo4wWgIBWem7_srwaPVRhjKRCuO3r46int2OcS9lFk661fHXm1UmbtCXPGVwdUaEodT2RwUhVX4NA/s960/6779183F-27FB-4B35-B492-872A7611E823.jpeg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="960" data-original-width="720" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiEnX-Qh-7_nuQV2f5R-Bkf8JQJ4u-gcIhrlFlQugBD4CFlfO8j0g7EIl2VEXNXbsAAFd9ccaTiC_SUN9k5rCs_dfljmgZd9sLtQKNi3rkHalKPFyo4wWgIBWem7_srwaPVRhjKRCuO3r46int2OcS9lFk661fHXm1UmbtCXPGVwdUaEodT2RwUhVX4NA/s320/6779183F-27FB-4B35-B492-872A7611E823.jpeg" width="240" /></a></div><p><span style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">To my son Tommy,</span></p><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">I often wonder why medical issues seem to group together in a family. If I looked at the actual data, I might realize this is just an incorrect perception. Still with your sister busting her head open a couple days ago and you falling sick the past two days, it is a well earned perception even if it is coincidental. Most people will say bad things come in threes. I am thinking of kicking the side of a building and breaking my toe just to make sure the third thing is me and not anyone else in the family.</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">You stayed home from school yesterday. You were dressed and ready, but as you walked up the stairs your mom heard your hacking echo of a cough. It was a deep loud hollow sound, not the type that suggested you had lungs filled with mucus. It more sounded like a croup bark. She sent you back down to bed.</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">When you finally woke up, your mom did a rapid covid test on you. Negative, thank God. So she filled you with cough medicine and you lazed around the house. You were sad because that meant you missed your basketball awards ceremony, but you understood your health was more important. The cough remained throughout the day, but seemed to lessen.</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">Later that evening, right before bed, the cough came back with vengeance. Your mom tried all the tricks she knew before calling your doctors’ on call line. With your on going asthma condition, things were getting worrisome. Finally, you had a barking/coughing fit where you were starting to panic and having trouble catching your breath. Off to the emergency room you went. Your mom took you. I stayed with the girls.</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">You guys got home real late. You were wiped out and crashed pretty hard. The doctors at the ED couldn’t really give us an answer but the fit was gone and the symptoms were somewhat managed. You and your mom are at your doctors’ office right now doing a follow up. I hope they can figure out what or why and how to avoid it.</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">The worst thing actually happened today. I gave you my condolences because in your current condition, it is doubtful you will be able to participate in your school’s talent show. “I worked so hard, I don’t want to throw it away,” you told me through quivering voice and tearful eyes. </div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">My son, I feel ya. I know how difficult it is when you are forced out of something you diligently prepared for and eagerly anticipated. Unfortunately, this choice is a no brainer. We can’t send you to school to spread whatever you have. You need your rest. Your health is more important than any show. Plus between your sore throat and chest, I am not sure you are up for the task anyhow. Once you get through the initial disappointment, I think you will realize that focusing on your health now will lead to a promising future where you are going to have plenty of opportunities to show your great love for singing!</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">Sincerely with love from your dad,</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">Leo</div>Leo Downeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11098341844131756739noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3438662798947859408.post-84720708240724430472022-04-05T10:20:00.002-04:002022-04-05T10:21:50.300-04:00Who Is You<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjQ3j84fTxb2Z0lQ76JPILTLWc3mSdXL53u5NE_J9tr4IOkE0BoxmgSpO-VRAc9Mm_PZJ6swnk9t6Ij9B9Aav7qbkRnAFyN0MlEnMvZpx-j4gs1wZOTspkHwMCps9SVefbaIJ8NXwA6nY5vrTisl8OcEhToOFBxGAzuJRm4nkCW1pdJKo5S27O6wZIJGA/s4032/331B62DD-71DE-439E-B5E9-E040E26754BA.jpeg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4032" data-original-width="3024" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjQ3j84fTxb2Z0lQ76JPILTLWc3mSdXL53u5NE_J9tr4IOkE0BoxmgSpO-VRAc9Mm_PZJ6swnk9t6Ij9B9Aav7qbkRnAFyN0MlEnMvZpx-j4gs1wZOTspkHwMCps9SVefbaIJ8NXwA6nY5vrTisl8OcEhToOFBxGAzuJRm4nkCW1pdJKo5S27O6wZIJGA/s320/331B62DD-71DE-439E-B5E9-E040E26754BA.jpeg" width="240" /></a></div><br /><p><br /></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;">To my daughter Rosie,<o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><o:p> </o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;">For all intents and purposes, genetically you are the exact same as your sister. I must admit that throughout your young life I have times where I get you guys mixed up. There are a couple minor physical diffirences we have used to verify we are talking to the right girl. <o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><o:p> </o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;">When people ask how I tell you apart, I say it is easy and then ask you or your sister the purposefully gramatically incorrect, "Who is you?" A couple times, your sister and you have tried claiming to be the other. Luckily you guys have not inherited the Irish ability to say BS believably. Your mischief attempts are thwarted by your giggle or even the other culprit in mischief chiming in and blowing the gag.<o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><o:p> </o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;">You also live an entwined life with your sister. You are constantly together. You enjoy the same things. You both laugh when daddy carries you upside down to bed. You also both think it is hysterically when you fart on daddy's neck while he is carrying you to bed. Some people swear they can tell you guys apart from attitude or personality. You both have a distinct personality but honestly the similarities make it so you can easily lose track of who is who.<o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><o:p> </o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;">Of course, after last night, we have another physical distinguishing feature, a four stitch scar on the forehead. You and your sister were spinning in the hallway last night. Your mother warned you to stop. I warned you to stop. Like most kids, you assumed you knew more than your parents and didn't allow caution and common sense to stop your twirling fun. Dizziness and gravity won out and decided to make a love connection between your forehead and a jutting corner of two walls. The blood gushed as head cuts tend to. A couple hours in the urgent care, you were stitched up and now are on the mend.<o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><o:p> </o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;">Eileen was beside herself. "My sister! my sister! Oh no." She tried her best to stay up till you got home, even willing to kick daddy every time he picked up her sleeping body to move her to bed. "I can't sleep yet, I have to wait for Rosie to come home to make sure she is okay!"<o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><o:p> </o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;">The similarities between two twins is a fact of life. There is no point in fighting it. There will be times when you look to establish yourself as your own person, establish your own uniqueness. The connection and love between you two might have been a foregone conclusion too. I count it as a blessing. But you are unique and each of you are on your own unique path with your own unique likes and dislikes and quirks and adventures and successes and failures and memories and scars. This was just one of the major events at which you two have diverged. There will be more.<o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><o:p> </o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;">On a side note, you were a trooper through the whole ordeal. After you finished at the clinic, you told your mother, "That was fun!" or something to that effect and meant it sincerely. You relayed the same sentiment to me except you added, "...besides the yucky stuff," and you apologized for the whole event to me saying, "this is all my fault." Oh sweet girl, I love you so.<o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><o:p> </o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;">Sincerely with love from your dad,<o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;">Leo</p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><br /></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEijoY_9i0w-NTzm7QRixUGl6XSTUUDemQNhr54nP-h4YH_apNfWQ0s7f_236ABsvyLj-bSOJp8ZoXqpieIN6QmdLy2e4txHIKTX_hzoxWILHDqZroBgmoxqKpJQYKmCl4g2hNRFcTjtU_WDiBCbuu36lOa13PFI4x2f2AutZU0yDcg8RBhihvFQ-AqDgA/s4032/F8296FB9-6D36-4345-A203-E3C22E57EBFA.jpeg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4032" data-original-width="3024" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEijoY_9i0w-NTzm7QRixUGl6XSTUUDemQNhr54nP-h4YH_apNfWQ0s7f_236ABsvyLj-bSOJp8ZoXqpieIN6QmdLy2e4txHIKTX_hzoxWILHDqZroBgmoxqKpJQYKmCl4g2hNRFcTjtU_WDiBCbuu36lOa13PFI4x2f2AutZU0yDcg8RBhihvFQ-AqDgA/s320/F8296FB9-6D36-4345-A203-E3C22E57EBFA.jpeg" width="240" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Above is a sticker on your mask at the urgent care clinic.</div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Your sticker gift was a prized possession from the visit.</div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEifl0h_lthyVS2IGG-Df_eg-iFajSoLTL3RYd_8BbW01XYLhOH2Dz6LrSTwnNKPfpipHBVD95WayCw4W7EGzd-GBjh7m2leChUgIilSkEe5zt5H_29wLtxycwptbRnX5F5PhyqjI-l663BauLAfk01KaJSqxgivcgYkK9LUIiVmD5M4aSc_q-1W4tnAxw/s4032/4C3CAF01-4D35-44F7-9F3D-A4CEA5F9BB9E.jpeg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4032" data-original-width="3024" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEifl0h_lthyVS2IGG-Df_eg-iFajSoLTL3RYd_8BbW01XYLhOH2Dz6LrSTwnNKPfpipHBVD95WayCw4W7EGzd-GBjh7m2leChUgIilSkEe5zt5H_29wLtxycwptbRnX5F5PhyqjI-l663BauLAfk01KaJSqxgivcgYkK9LUIiVmD5M4aSc_q-1W4tnAxw/s320/4C3CAF01-4D35-44F7-9F3D-A4CEA5F9BB9E.jpeg" width="240" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">Above is a picture of the gash before stitches.</div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjaBLyVU3dHzqzsHW3p-_7DVp45fKyQdJtASaDbiDaLEjx3zy_1qhUG2KJ0NMrWKwzhNx594dNzzL_TtJ8mEue78DW6ixvX0mJlEaSxJG0VxRLuHgTtwdjPC3K6bKR7pr-gsc8sVoUzqkVI2jhe-IcdNTlAqLdyLYCpm5P8xbouE6pp7YHsVSUQcDBcmQ/s4032/14A00A59-B159-4468-9FEC-2EA99624EFA6.jpeg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4032" data-original-width="3024" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjaBLyVU3dHzqzsHW3p-_7DVp45fKyQdJtASaDbiDaLEjx3zy_1qhUG2KJ0NMrWKwzhNx594dNzzL_TtJ8mEue78DW6ixvX0mJlEaSxJG0VxRLuHgTtwdjPC3K6bKR7pr-gsc8sVoUzqkVI2jhe-IcdNTlAqLdyLYCpm5P8xbouE6pp7YHsVSUQcDBcmQ/s320/14A00A59-B159-4468-9FEC-2EA99624EFA6.jpeg" width="240" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">You were pretty zonked the next morning. Here is Ilee giving you a stuffy and covering you with blankets to make sure you were comfortable as you healed.</div><br /><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><br /></p>Leo Downeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11098341844131756739noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3438662798947859408.post-77239749982027558742022-03-13T11:48:00.002-04:002022-03-13T11:48:20.924-04:00Unpacking<p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEjCkyS7JvkMYCpzpNSfLzyEhuSAjQko1MzlDN7ooqxIuM-oyXqf82sA-7LBpZtf21npbbxkqS8aLlhEoa9YmxDtk5CnIC_PvWZCyb307p6tYMsJcS0rCRvpP9bymOeucZneTMKr0LSYbIFqOX-iIfO1xr2_sLBPakL6hB-sXrKJQgLwip4bmwUtH4059A=s4032" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4032" data-original-width="3024" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEjCkyS7JvkMYCpzpNSfLzyEhuSAjQko1MzlDN7ooqxIuM-oyXqf82sA-7LBpZtf21npbbxkqS8aLlhEoa9YmxDtk5CnIC_PvWZCyb307p6tYMsJcS0rCRvpP9bymOeucZneTMKr0LSYbIFqOX-iIfO1xr2_sLBPakL6hB-sXrKJQgLwip4bmwUtH4059A=s320" width="240" /></a></div><br /><span style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></span><p></p><p><span style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></span></p><p><span style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">To my daughters Rosie and Ilee,</span></p><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">I have moved more than the average person. Being an army brat, I would move every two or three years as dad would get a new station. I got used to it. It had its advantages and drawbacks but more on that another time.</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">This is the first time I have “moved” into the same place. You see, due to the house flooding, we had to pack up about seven rooms worth of stuff. The water mitigation crew got a storage pod for our driveway and moved a bunch of stuff out there. The water damage is fixed and the rooms are restored. Now we have all these boxes to go through and empty.</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">The cool thing about unpacking from a child’s view (or even a father with a fairly big immature streak) is of course the cardboard! They are great for forts! You guys have been hanging around as I work on unpacking the basement. Your “helping” was not so helpful, so I unpacked some old toys that I hadn’t gotten around to giving you guys and also made a fort.</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">Unfortunately, my distraction technique has a drawback. Every time I unpack a box and look over at you guys playing, I get jealous. I might need to take more fort breaks!</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">Sincerely with love from your dad,</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">Leo</div>Leo Downeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11098341844131756739noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3438662798947859408.post-40827465033334426372022-03-12T12:16:00.006-05:002022-03-12T12:16:59.924-05:00Happy Meals Make My Girls Happy<p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEjXhrcGWfb3nTwwzRajD0j-u9vE2QkyseR0dkrf_0pxeIWAndX5mQKPt_lQIttUQhSf6zZpZ2byTsTCUNiPdjJIpTZsD0dHwN4sFKbUGyI5Q5m7aIBlHD9cgX1f3SdQERS9T21tq9BwBawoWm3Sm1PgZkOSNO8r_xg549eErK7EDrgQZnaFVgvp6ibCew=s4032" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4032" data-original-width="3024" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEjXhrcGWfb3nTwwzRajD0j-u9vE2QkyseR0dkrf_0pxeIWAndX5mQKPt_lQIttUQhSf6zZpZ2byTsTCUNiPdjJIpTZsD0dHwN4sFKbUGyI5Q5m7aIBlHD9cgX1f3SdQERS9T21tq9BwBawoWm3Sm1PgZkOSNO8r_xg549eErK7EDrgQZnaFVgvp6ibCew=s320" width="240" /></a></div><br /><span style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></span><p></p><p><span style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">To my daughters Ilee and Rosie,</span></p><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">I am convinced that one of the best marketing ploys of these times is the “Happy Meal” from McDonalds. It has been said that the kid’s meal is also the menu item with the least profit margin. They hook the kids and make the money on their parents ordering from the “adult” menu. And of course the biggest draw of the “happy meal” is the toy.</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">Tommy and I picked up McDonalds for you guys on the way home from his morning basketball game. We got him a regular meal but we skipped meals for the rest of the family because, quite frankly, I don’t need fast food and any time I can pass it up is a few more moments added to the end of my life. You girls were so excited, diving immediately in to find the prize!</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">Ilee: Daddy, we got a wee jee?</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">Me (with my back to you guys because I was splitting the nuggets and cutting the burger in half to share): A what?</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">Ilee: A weeeeee jeeeee (as if the elongation of the vowel sounds would make me understand)</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">Me: A ouija? (Thinking myself that McDonalds is quite daring to include an occult board game during Lent)</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">Rosie: Right, a weee jeee!</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">You guys got a Luigi from Mario or specifically a Luigi driving his car from Mario Kart. I chuckled at the cute mispronunciation and I was relieved the mega corporation didn’t go with ghostly communication tools for its kids prize.</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">Sincerely with love from your dad,</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">Leo</div><br class="Apple-interchange-newline" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto;" />Leo Downeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11098341844131756739noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3438662798947859408.post-41999622804743309002022-03-10T22:56:00.004-05:002022-03-10T23:00:45.207-05:00Flying Birds<p> <a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEj_lwZ3uPKYEpK7c2XCqPVz_p4SBOmfpmzsPT2JtisDtHbMjRWjLWVqvD4QkU6DTjiXF_0HFWQ__kQKl9MoRpyrXkdLqAUv7kXrmm5unp6lNBpm6SCWCo7SFZRqQiPBOhwvmyp_JJN70AI-g3mp_HYVTwFyt2Ge4d1_sX8F_2Ozo_phFmdxBRfpHTSxbA=s960" style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px; margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em; text-align: center;"><img border="0" data-original-height="720" data-original-width="960" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEj_lwZ3uPKYEpK7c2XCqPVz_p4SBOmfpmzsPT2JtisDtHbMjRWjLWVqvD4QkU6DTjiXF_0HFWQ__kQKl9MoRpyrXkdLqAUv7kXrmm5unp6lNBpm6SCWCo7SFZRqQiPBOhwvmyp_JJN70AI-g3mp_HYVTwFyt2Ge4d1_sX8F_2Ozo_phFmdxBRfpHTSxbA=s320" width="320" /></a></p><p><span style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">To my son Tommy and my daughters Rosie and Ilee,</span></p><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">When I lived in Italy, it took our family awhile to get down to Rome. Our first trip was a tour sponsored by the post church. I remember getting off the bus, following our tour guide and coming to the first street to cross. I was an eager and fast kid and I actually had gotten ahead of him and the rest of the group. I stopped at the corner to wait for a good time to cross. The traffic was crazy, the worst I have ever seen to this day. Our tour guide finally caught up and without hesitating one bit stepped out in to the traffic. The car stopped, barely, with a whole six inches of room between the bumper and our guide’s knees. He ushered us across, stopping each lane in much the same manner. When we got to the other side, I must have had a ‘wtf’ look on my face and he stopped and said to me, “When in Rome…” He giggled a bit and continued to explain that if we wait for what an American sees as an acceptable space to cross that our entire tour of Rome would be that corner intersection.</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">Never underestimate the pride of local people who have learned to deal with the challenges of their regions. Sure they will curse and complain about things, but they will just deal with it and receive such great joy when outsiders come and can’t cope! The people above the Arctic Circle bitch about the cold, but laugh when visitors say it is freezing. Those desert dwellers must complain about the heat and dryness but then laugh when visitors don’t heed the warnings to stay hydrated. Each locale has its source of conflict to overcome and perverse sense of pride in dealing with it every day. </div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">In the immediate areas, DC and Baltimore, we have the beltway! Not as bad as traffic in Rome, but definitely less pleasurable than sliding down razor blades into a vat of lemon juice! They say DC is worse than Baltimore, but good ole B’more can hold its own on the circle of hell scale.</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">Still as much as we complain, the beltway recently brought me great joy. You see a bunch of truckers came to the area and decided to convoy around the DC beltway to protest federal mask mandates. A couple of problems. </div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">One, there is no federal mask mandate and never has been. The rest of their protest cries seem unclear, disjointed, and without specific example. A reporter tried to clarify what their “demands” were. The last explanation I heard comes from one of the political pundits, who happens to be a Texas senator, trying to score clout from this cult of whackos, and he explains they just want the federal government to leave them alone. When the reporter asked a follow up and tried seeking details, Senator Cruz just said the reporter wasn’t bright. Honestly, I have heard clearer demands from toddlers having tantrums and better reasoning from school yard bullies using the “I know you are but what am I” rebuttals. By the way, the truckers were trying to pick a CB handle for Sen Cruz for today or tomorrow’s lap. I heard “the rubber duck” was in the lead.</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">Anyways, the second problem, and the bane of our local commuters, is the beltway, specifically the DC beltway and the drivers who have learned various crazy techniques and coping mechanisms to drive this road everyday. These “freedom convoy” wanted to drive around and block at least two lanes of traffic for their “protest”. </div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">Now, it is completely laughable to anyone who has ever spent time on the DC beltway, that someone would voluntarily drive on the beltway to protest! I mean it is like saying, “If I don’t get attention, I am going to go slam my head between the car door for an hour.” or like a toddler trying to hold their breath till they get a cookie.</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">Other than the pure ridiculousness of it, the beltway did its job. It made sure they got separated and couldn’t even effectively caravan in one lane. The weather took them out one day, but the beltway was the real “protest” killer. And as for the regular commuters? Well I think one of the temper tantrum truckers put it best when he said, “We go around the beltway, birds are flying. Birds are flying everywhere. That’s the kind of people that live up there.” He wasn’t talking about flying creatures. But he was talking about the hand expressions of every day commuters. I hate beltways and beltway drivers with a passion, but they are an engrained part of being a person from this area, and these people letting the birds fly, these people are my people! </div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">The picture (one of my favorites and the one which will get reposted year after year) of the twins from their early days (August 2018 I think) gives me hope that at least one of them will be able to drive the DC beltway. At the very least, they will know how to communicate their dissatisfaction with a Karen caravan.</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">Sincerely with love from your dad,</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">Leo</div>Leo Downeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11098341844131756739noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3438662798947859408.post-13061379617749098582022-03-07T07:07:00.005-05:002022-03-07T07:07:59.518-05:00Reading Minds<p> </p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEiz4ugA5eIbvFR6sKHl4JrnqK3fB_qh2SJSM6aGKoMFoG_eKEMAHPJVa-i7OZef1MRhnUUPqE-213Qq4feQ7TRZ4ltOu9GF_QEfCRPZPw0wXC6FUIY_Dl6F5c0-XRkrY36gvd_ZiNRocdM62EPJ8dY5nfUt9g6rItJtc4kKpfVSfLffEL7x5uo8afkSrQ=s4032" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="3024" data-original-width="4032" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEiz4ugA5eIbvFR6sKHl4JrnqK3fB_qh2SJSM6aGKoMFoG_eKEMAHPJVa-i7OZef1MRhnUUPqE-213Qq4feQ7TRZ4ltOu9GF_QEfCRPZPw0wXC6FUIY_Dl6F5c0-XRkrY36gvd_ZiNRocdM62EPJ8dY5nfUt9g6rItJtc4kKpfVSfLffEL7x5uo8afkSrQ=s320" width="320" /></a></div><br /><p></p><p><span style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">To the twins,</span></p><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">Here is an example of the conversation last night.</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">Rosie: Daddy, you know what I am thinking?</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">Me (figuring okay I will take a shot): You are thinking that you want to dip your chicken tender in that ranch dressing and take a big bite?</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">Rosie (laughing incredulously): No. When I grow up Mommy will be the baby and I will be the Mommy and Elsa from Frozen will drive the car and then we will all poop. (Quoted thought may not be verbatim and could have included a bunch of other non sequiter thoughts, but you get the point)</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">Me: Huh?</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">Eileen: Daddy, you know what I am thinking?</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">Me (thinking I will try again but aim a little more outside the box): You Ilee? You are thinking about finishing that puzzle with Roro.</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">Eileen (also laughing at me): No! When Rosie is the mommy, the color purple will taste like an M&M and I’ll eat it all up while doing the bird dance?</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">Me: You mean the chicken dance?</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">Eileen (laughing at her self): Oh yeah. Silly Ilee.</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">Rosie: Daddy, you know what I am thinking?</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">Me: How can anyone know? Daddy is not playing this game anymore!</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">Evidently you guys have adopted a new phrase. I was caught off guard and tried to play that silly little reindeer game in a more serious manner. But the thoughts going through your minds remind me of the spread pattern from a twenty eight gauge shotgun using birdshot at thirty yards. So from here on out, my answers to that question will be more and more absurd.</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">When I was younger, I watched a cartoon show called the Animaniacs which had a segment called Pinky and the Brain about two mice. Brain would always ask the question, “Pinky, are you thinking what I am thinking?” and Pinky would respond with some outrageous like, “I think so Brain, but where are we going to find a monkey wearing leiderhosen?” I have entered that moment where life imitates art.</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">Sincerely with love from your confused and always guessing dad,</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">Leo</div>Leo Downeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11098341844131756739noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3438662798947859408.post-88433159779836059472022-03-06T08:59:00.002-05:002022-03-06T08:59:35.367-05:00Sudden Changes For The Better<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEhG7F9qzHOlaQPZuKQiWGQ3JhvpjUoxoP2dEkU5tLuyuuXFh5WX4fLKt5F4lWnus8MkRZNhq1IExBXDxRM3ZGDmxZ15-PNKmaL2pvsEqaqats2szgQTeMuQAAWiyhgaiTkIfarukt1vazv4BbLs1njlrX_isJTEzqRSgHcuGjD05UcqpksYzDrjnYVyUQ=s4032" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4032" data-original-width="3024" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEhG7F9qzHOlaQPZuKQiWGQ3JhvpjUoxoP2dEkU5tLuyuuXFh5WX4fLKt5F4lWnus8MkRZNhq1IExBXDxRM3ZGDmxZ15-PNKmaL2pvsEqaqats2szgQTeMuQAAWiyhgaiTkIfarukt1vazv4BbLs1njlrX_isJTEzqRSgHcuGjD05UcqpksYzDrjnYVyUQ=s320" width="240" /></a></div><br /><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p> <span style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">To my son Tommy and my daughters “the twins”,</span></p><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">Today, I took Roro to 7:30 Mass at Holy Family. It was her first time to attend Mass in person for roughly two years. Her absence was due to her health issues and the pandemic and all her co-morbidities. What was really surprising was when it came time to stand during Mass, except for one time where she decided she was a bit winded, she stood. I only counted two times that she rested her eyes, as well. It has been a long time that she attended Mass in such an engaging way.</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">It is a weird feeling when something has been so difficult, or just plain wrong, for so long and all of a sudden things change. This is the situation we are in with your Grandma Roro right now.</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">For the longest time, something has been wrong with Roro. She has been in a mental fog for at least the past six years and probably closer to a decade. I say six years for certain, because when your Grandpa Leo was starting to get worse with his brain cancer, we moved in our entire family to help take care of him and Roro. That was roughly 2015 or 2016. Roro had been having problems prior to us moving in that your grandpa had been dealing with, maybe for another half decade before. Right before he finally passed in 2017, I promised him to keep the family here to take care of your Grandma Roro. I even promised to try and be kind and compassionate considering her mental state, which I must confess I found very difficult at times. The moments of clarity Roro experienced since that time were few and far between. It was difficult and trying to say the least.</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">That is till about two weeks ago. All of a sudden like, she is back to being as sharp as a tac. Sure she has a bunch of medical issues, and she still has a bit of old age dottiness, but her mental acuity is far above the point where we were certain of advanced dementia or even Alzheimer’s. I mean the week before she asked me a dozen times “what is this?” as she held up a tv remote. </div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">Now the doctors can’t explain the previous state or the change, though that doesn’t stop all of them from guessing. Each doctor’s guess seems wildly different. Your mother and I have our guess too. Was it meds? Was it the MS? Was it her diabetes? Was it her blood pressure? Was it her heart condition? Or was the change due to an honest to goodness fricking miracle? Who knows why?</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">But the point is, she is at a level that is far above her baseline for the past half decade. She is reasonable and engaging and aware. I know that saying such things seems wrong and means I didn’t see her in that light before. Unfortunately not saying such things would not make it any less true. I admit that dealing with her before made me cringe. Now your mother and I welcome her company and interactions. Don’t get me wrong, she still can be difficult and frustrating as hell, but that is a very different difficult than before.</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">It is such a blessing to you guys, her grandchildren, to know your Grandmother Roro in this manner. You guys loved her no matter what before, but now she can be active in your lives. I see her engaging, teaching, and even playing with you guys so much more. Her quality of life also increased exponentially. These past two weekends she has been able to attend a couple of Tommy’s basketball games. Around the house, she is engaged in a hobby again (puzzles, which has inspired the twins to try ever increasing difficult jigsaws themselves) and enjoys a few more trips out of the house, be it shopping or restaurants or Mass or high school reunion luncheons or what have you.</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">So here we are, with this sudden change from the prior condition which we had reluctantly accepted as the normal. I suppose we have a couple options. We can sit there in dread waiting for a (perhaps inevitable) return to the previous condition. Or, we can just forget every stressful moment from the past decade and enjoy this now found positive change every moment that we get it and thus accept this as the new normal. I hope to do the latter, but honestly am stuck somewhere in between the two options. You guys hopefully are all in on the second option. I know the twins are, they never hit the age where they realized something was wrong. Tommy, you might have some reservations and might cling to your past tendency to watch out for Roro like a parent protecting a child from themselves. Either way, tonight I am going to pray for Roro and ask the good Lord to allow her to remain in this mental state or even continue to improve. Tomorrow, I am going to pray that same prayer again. And the day after, and the day after that.</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">Sincerely with love from your dad,</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">Leo</div>Leo Downeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11098341844131756739noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3438662798947859408.post-49346775131663389582022-03-05T22:30:00.002-05:002022-03-05T22:34:29.738-05:00Take Your Shots<p> </p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEjw89ZuKIaUBVAHq0VqEwFKhBO-A51S_2vrin-TDIILij_YKkd-oZxiafpOOTbbLQWnRGojAPYcPKXzuuFwfnt5rXTPdgDGG0ZMoIs8Jm_dhfhjymkRN_BmOePHO-VjOrYkG9QBgAHA_dkrx7O8DTDWUrnLjlVyTJYkP8SjVmXzi0DJbzTKF1LfPskkrQ=s624" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="451" data-original-width="624" height="231" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEjw89ZuKIaUBVAHq0VqEwFKhBO-A51S_2vrin-TDIILij_YKkd-oZxiafpOOTbbLQWnRGojAPYcPKXzuuFwfnt5rXTPdgDGG0ZMoIs8Jm_dhfhjymkRN_BmOePHO-VjOrYkG9QBgAHA_dkrx7O8DTDWUrnLjlVyTJYkP8SjVmXzi0DJbzTKF1LfPskkrQ=s320" width="320" /></a></div><br /><p></p><p class="p3" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span class="s2" style="font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody;">To my son Tommy,</span></p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 22px;"><span class="s2" style="font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody;"></span><br /></p><p class="p3" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span class="s2" style="font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody;">“Look, if you had one shot, or one opportunity To seize everything you ever wanted, in one moment Would you capture it, or just let it slip?” We hear this line from the song “Lose Yourself” by Eminem right before every basketball game. It has become our pre-game ritual.</span></p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 22px;"><span class="s2" style="font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody;"></span><br /></p><p class="p3" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span class="s2" style="font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody;">You had two games today, and the morning game saw you with four or five shots. Not a single one went in. Every parent for our team leaned and squirmed and tried to will the ball off the rim and into the basket every shot you had. You were close, but no two. But that is okay with me. Keep taking the shots. They will fall in place eventually. </span></p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 22px;"><span class="s2" style="font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody;"></span><br /></p><p class="p3" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span class="s2" style="font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody;">More importantly, your basketball game has improved greatly this year, and not just ball handling, defense, and taking shots. You have learned to be a team player. You have learned to give it your all. You have learned that every action counts and can help your team even when it is away from the ball or even on the bench. You have gained a bit more poise and a bunch more confidence on the court, and off. You have learned that these lessons from team sports translate to all aspects of your life. You can go this entire season without ever making a bucket, and I will still be amazingly proud of you and your growth.</span></p><p class="p2" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px; min-height: 22px;"><span class="s2" style="font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody;"></span><br /></p><p class="p3" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span class="s2" style="font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody;">Sincerely with love from your dad,</span></p><p class="p3" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 17px; font-stretch: normal; line-height: normal; margin: 0px;"><span class="s2" style="font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody;">Leo</span></p>Leo Downeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11098341844131756739noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3438662798947859408.post-81645089658187231402022-03-04T20:50:00.004-05:002022-03-04T20:50:49.123-05:00Doing Undone Chores<p> </p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEjPzi23CIsfHGaR0wz_tFS8vy2N8cbLwFTx9IXduKDT-eUpYm7vlv4WHD1feGjT8e_BC9SavecFVMJ4gYLDWO3EGSnrcbWUHBQ_Or3_RQFjdse6JAzQs4Hu6FFXy_Fty259lpkuQCNaI2azPdQKTVCJVfZHtUBgI2kwAyCha2mVGkgF6yNYFer7d20spg=s4032" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4032" data-original-width="3024" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEjPzi23CIsfHGaR0wz_tFS8vy2N8cbLwFTx9IXduKDT-eUpYm7vlv4WHD1feGjT8e_BC9SavecFVMJ4gYLDWO3EGSnrcbWUHBQ_Or3_RQFjdse6JAzQs4Hu6FFXy_Fty259lpkuQCNaI2azPdQKTVCJVfZHtUBgI2kwAyCha2mVGkgF6yNYFer7d20spg=s320" width="240" /></a></div><br /><p></p><p><br /></p><p><span style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">To my son Tommy,</span></p><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">This morning, I emptied your lunch box, yet again. By my count, that is the twenty second time I did it this year without raising a stink with you. You probably won’t even realize it. Mind you, I am taking this actual year and not the school year. So, we are talking about maybe forty school days.</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">I often remind myself that I was once an inconsiderate teenage boy. I often remind myself that your grandfather had to do similar acts of kindness to save his ornery son from himself. But your grandfather was a more patient father than I am, because I sometimes lose my shit when one of the few tasks and chores assigned to you is constantly left undone.</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">You don’t have many chores, and the ones you do have are really for you. You don’t really have any initiative to do other tasks or chores that aren’t specifically assigned to you. In fact, you have the ability to step over or around anything in your way instead of picking it up. I talk to other parents and some relay similar stories about their teen, while others lie.</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">Still, no matter what you do or don’t do, no matter if you realize or don’t realize how much I help you out by silently doing your tasks, I still love you. But one day, when you are lucky enough to be a father, I hope you run in to this frustrating problem with your kid. By the way, you didn’t hang up your book bag or jacket again today and added a new twist spreading books and papers on top of the washer. Sigh.</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">Sincerely with love from your dad,</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">Leo</div>Leo Downeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11098341844131756739noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3438662798947859408.post-34060365252114863412022-03-03T08:54:00.004-05:002022-03-03T14:21:18.813-05:00Maintenance<p> </p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEgJlFZEXrGSNp4fxZiEvD9aPbcLeCoIi7AnGDGxs2ZJFemoOhdgOxkuSkWmkWwDWjVZ2Kqw5k5Bx1NkDLjpEzReBZahocv93vxjt1tcF1y_cUJdq6U3K8qIO8i1FFu-EG2xg7Jk0mSBTgxCeHSuOABiLspDV5hiZ_DHOz-IU6_mhuRuvMuASy98pfGPFA=s4032" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4032" data-original-width="3024" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEgJlFZEXrGSNp4fxZiEvD9aPbcLeCoIi7AnGDGxs2ZJFemoOhdgOxkuSkWmkWwDWjVZ2Kqw5k5Bx1NkDLjpEzReBZahocv93vxjt1tcF1y_cUJdq6U3K8qIO8i1FFu-EG2xg7Jk0mSBTgxCeHSuOABiLspDV5hiZ_DHOz-IU6_mhuRuvMuASy98pfGPFA=s320" width="240" /></a></div><p><br /></p><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">To my daughter Rosie,</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">Today you get special billing because you were the first child to greet me this morning. I was sleeping on the couch in the upstairs living room (been there for awhile because your Grandma Ro flooded the house, but that is a story for another time) and your mother had taken Tommy to school for me. You sauntered out with sleep in your eyes, looked at me, smiled, and without asking, nestled in to my chest. Right before you faded off again, you said, “I love you daddy.” As we were snuggled in, Zoe jumped on top to make it a dog pile and get in on some of this loving action. I thought, “if this is what your mommy gets every day, then I am so jealous!” I just soaked up the love.</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">I needed that. It had been a shitty night, and a shitty morning, quite literally. I have a colonoscopy today and was doing the prep thing. Unfortunately our snuggle session only lasted about fifteen minutes before the Sutab pills forced me to move.</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">I have been doing more doctor visits lately, and surprisingly they are actually for me. Nothing is specifically wrong, but I have decided to be more into my own health and maintenance, a little bit of self care. </div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">For too long I haven’t had time to worry about me or my medical, as I have always put myself last. It was just an extra chore on an already super stressful and busy life. If you ever fly in a plane, and you listen carefully to the instructions that increase (from nil to probably two points above nil) your survival rate if a catastrophe occurs while in flight, you will hear, “Put your oxygen mask on first, then assist others.” Well that is what I am doing now. Instead of running around like a madman worrying about everything else and hoping I don’t run out of air, I am putting my oxygen mask on first.</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">Of course one hurdle I had to get over in my mind was letting perfection be the enemy of progress. Too often in my life, I have looked at my health and figured I was so far gone … so why bother. I had a ride till I die attitude about life. </div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">One thing I have learned in other aspects of life is just because you can’t do everything doesn’t give you the right to do nothing. Every little bit helps. Listen, I am not perfect and definitely not the best picture of health, but I am trying. I have a bunch of things to work out, but for now I have started by regularly going to the doctors and following doctors’ orders. I keep a constant eye on my skin and regular visits with my dermatologist make sure the skin cancer spots aren’t coming back. I am weighing in about 40 pounds lighter than my 5 year high today, though I won’t elaborate on how I lost the last five pounds in a day. Still fat, but it is a start. My A1C is under 7 and my blood pressure is normalizing, from extreme, down to slightly elevated. I eat a few more salads for lunch in a week and park a little farther away so I have to walk a bit more. All just a drop in the bucket, but a single drip can create a mighty canyon given time and consistency.</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">Why? Why now? Well the why is easy, because I love you guys and want to stick around for a few more years and see how everything turns out. The why now question is answered by my philosophy of it is never too late to do anything. As for the question it begs, why not before? Well for that I can only ask for forgiveness and pray that my youthful ways did not shorten my life too much.</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;"><br /></div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">Sincerely with love from your dad,</div><div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">Leo</div>Leo Downeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11098341844131756739noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3438662798947859408.post-14340551424176377902022-03-02T10:53:00.002-05:002022-03-02T11:10:10.820-05:00Precarious<p> </p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEjSOhsLRAsnhUd2WmdwvVMXk6xsR3nG0Zz48rb252Iq73CG7YpZkUFj6Jy-BRYMzgtkqu63jcXiurtGcr10iyNISefxWM_cunKxHjj4HRfCzNVPU2QWUdyVqo3ITBjdVF5g-MUeydnhXXybXz-rMK2iGvXyGPKwlPfqT4wcykuRriOIbDGCouECzdzb6A=s850" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="567" data-original-width="850" height="213" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEjSOhsLRAsnhUd2WmdwvVMXk6xsR3nG0Zz48rb252Iq73CG7YpZkUFj6Jy-BRYMzgtkqu63jcXiurtGcr10iyNISefxWM_cunKxHjj4HRfCzNVPU2QWUdyVqo3ITBjdVF5g-MUeydnhXXybXz-rMK2iGvXyGPKwlPfqT4wcykuRriOIbDGCouECzdzb6A=s320" width="320" /></a></div><br /><p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;">To my son Tommy and my daughters Illee and Rosie,<o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><o:p> </o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;">I wish I could always talk about funny on goings in the family or small life lessons learned or basically keep to the lighter stuff. I would, however, be remiss to not share accounts of the events throughout the greater world, especially when they have such potential for catastrophe. Maybe one day you will read this and realize why mommy and daddy kept putting on the news to the distress and outcry from the girls who seemingly cannot survive without another episode of “Butterbean’s Café” and how they foil Ms. Marmalade.<o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><o:p> </o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;">The world once again stands in a precarious situation. Conflict has never left the world for any significant time, but there is no doubt the current situation in Europe rises well above the level of "conflict" and can be called war. This is an all-out war, a war that can continue to escalate and have wide and dire consequences for everyone in the world. You see Russia has invaded the Ukraine. Russia is a superpower with nuclear capabilities and has even hinted that it is not above putting the world into a nuclear winter should anyone interfere. <o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><o:p> </o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;">Now unlike most people on the internet these days, I do not pretend to be an accomplished geo political analyst. However, it doesn't take a professional to know some serious crap is going down. It also doesn't take an expert to realize that Russia under their leader Vladimir Putin is the aggressor, the invader, the villain here. That much seems obvious to me, but alas some others in the world, and even a few others in our own country, will argue this point. The world we live in is fraught with misinformation, disinformation, and pure bad judgement bolstered by ego and ignorance and political vitriol. To say I am concerned and disheartened would be an understatement.<o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><o:p> </o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;">There are flashes of hope. There are stories of valor. There are moments that briefly restore faith in humanity, but these moment are interspersed among death and desolation and violence that almost immediately blankets what little optimism that shines through with a shroud of despair.<o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><o:p> </o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;">This is the state of the world. It can wear you down greatly. Though this current war seems more dire than many conflicts of the past, I do not foresee a world where such events never happen. As your Grandpa Leo, a keen student of history, would often remind me, "It has happened before, it is happening now, it will happen again. The only thing we can do is study history, and learn from the past mistakes, and commit ourselves to not repeat such mistakes, and pray that one day mankind will let love into their hearts and abandon such violent folly."<o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><o:p> </o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;">I remember those words well. When he told me it was April 1986 and I was 11 years old and the U.S. had just bombed Libya in retaliation for a bombing of West Berlin discotheque which injured or killed a bunch of people including many U.S. military personnel. It was easily the biggest and scariest thing that I was aware of in my short life. We were stationed in Italy at the time. Libya was a relatively quick hop south over the Mediterranean, and, because Libya used to be an Italian colony, many Libyans also spoke Italian and enjoyed a liberal visa policy with Italy. Consequently over the next few months that followed, I learned how to check the underside of the family car with a mirror for bombs. I learned why one should vary their travel routes and why my dad would sometimes U-turn without warning and take a new path. I learned Army tactics for defending a military base with barricades and sniper positioning. I learned how to scan the horizon for threats. I saw some pretty crazy stuff. Fairly scary experience for an 11 year old me. I thought this would be the worst thing I would see in my life. Unfortunately, I was wrong. During my life there have been so many catastrophes and atrocities, all seemingly trying to outdo the last with their level of shock and devastation.<o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><o:p> </o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;">So we watch the current war in Ukraine with worry and anxiety. We watch the pundits on the tele saying "we should do this" and "we shouldn't do that" and "this will happen" and "doing this would be better" and other such flag waving or fear mongering or armchair quarterbacking. We wonder if our country is doing enough to help. We pray for those in harm's way. We wish the world would unite and stand for the supremacy of good over evil. We watch for those moments of hope and mercy and valor to help us not fall in despair. If I find myself losing all faith, I simply grab one of you and hug just a little bit tighter. Thank you for being my grounding rod and my comfort blanket.<o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><o:p> </o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;">Sincerely with love from your dad,<o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;">Leo</p>Leo Downeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11098341844131756739noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3438662798947859408.post-14875367208725278082022-03-01T11:38:00.000-05:002022-03-01T11:38:02.850-05:00Inclusivity<p> </p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEhIL3UJHdUwXn0M0hMfWRJJk-vlqvhhVq_6dQb0E05eo8nMRWaw5gl4p4dwBRZQFuylJG33r5TCT9yoNra2L89jHi7sim4LSQcPMcunrrupwtQFwg1VEbSHOKXE8JwFumLntSQPgePfGpaMml1tpMfv86FUqKJG2bexCf_m2A30YlLIpfrdPgoqcEHjjw=s3088" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2316" data-original-width="3088" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEhIL3UJHdUwXn0M0hMfWRJJk-vlqvhhVq_6dQb0E05eo8nMRWaw5gl4p4dwBRZQFuylJG33r5TCT9yoNra2L89jHi7sim4LSQcPMcunrrupwtQFwg1VEbSHOKXE8JwFumLntSQPgePfGpaMml1tpMfv86FUqKJG2bexCf_m2A30YlLIpfrdPgoqcEHjjw=s320" width="320" /></a></div><br /><p></p><p><br /></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;">To my son Tommy and his twin sisters,<o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><o:p> </o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;">Tommy, your mother pointed out that I should not leave out your twin sisters. Perhaps the address of each letter will change slightly here and there. A more targeted address, like "to my lovely children," or "to the banes of my current existence," or just each individually or just to the twins occasionally, will be used.<o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><o:p> </o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;">Ladies, for now, if I slip back into my usual address that is dedicated to just Tommy, I ask forgiveness. Tommy was here first. He inspired me to write these letters. In no way were the 865 previous letters designed to leave you out. In no way is anything I wrote not meant for your eyes and ears and hearts and minds. I will include you, and your love, and your shenanigans, and the life lessons you teach me and your mom, in these letters as well.<o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><br /></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;">There is a fine line for parents to walk when dealing with multiple children. No matter how much we say how much we love you all, opportunities are ripe for children to feel a sense of favoritism or injustice. Each of you are unique (even the twins) with your own personality and wants and needs. We try to interact and nourish and love each of you accordingly. We don’t necessarily love you in the same way, equally, because each of you differ in what love you need. But we love you equitably and we try to show and grow our love as a family unit. </p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><br /></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;">From time to time, you may look with envy at what the other gets and have a short memory of what you have received. Remember, the only time we need to compare, to look in your neighbor’s bowl, is to make sure they have enough, not to make sure you have as much as them. (That last reworded thought is attributed to a comedian named Louis CK and alas not my own but still stands true)</p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><o:p> </o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;">Sincerely with love from your dad,<o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;">Leo</p>Leo Downeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11098341844131756739noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3438662798947859408.post-14711027271616962782022-02-28T11:35:00.001-05:002022-02-28T12:46:58.265-05:00Once More Unto The Breach<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEjTUwqG06Tt9_moISD3K3bRSKk9z-ihaw1xo4A8msVox01HZP1Nwa4Sgvygul2so4d2W5N0i_CtxRVTf4TfXbijNhdQfeElBzXldVbzJp-ZlUd6XowRpToiTXvPpDw0KJXEICpWO35Xiovi3dCcJxJxkF8ogYY0xwIYqOYPIUoIJWnIplARSeNjKpkwCw=s4032" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4032" data-original-width="3024" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/a/AVvXsEjTUwqG06Tt9_moISD3K3bRSKk9z-ihaw1xo4A8msVox01HZP1Nwa4Sgvygul2so4d2W5N0i_CtxRVTf4TfXbijNhdQfeElBzXldVbzJp-ZlUd6XowRpToiTXvPpDw0KJXEICpWO35Xiovi3dCcJxJxkF8ogYY0xwIYqOYPIUoIJWnIplARSeNjKpkwCw=s320" width="240" /></a></div><br /><p><br /></p><p><br /></p><p> <span face="Calibri, sans-serif" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-size: 11pt;">To my son Tommy,</span></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><o:p> </o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;">It has been a long time coming since I started a letter with those words. It is not because I lost interest in writing to you these stories and life lessons. It is not because the lack of events or ongoings of our world or the greater world around us. (For there are so many things that have happened ranging from pandemics to personal family health issues to just amazing moments of watching you grow into a fine young man.) Nor is it because I stopped writing, though I just haven't put pen to paper or finger to keyboard to digital imprint. No. For the past years, I often would write in my mind; I would find the perfect sentence, the perfect topic, the perfect lesson, and would write the whole thing in my brain as I would drive, or sit, or find a moment to daydream away at work. Alas, those near perfect words (as my mind saw them at the time) are gone, shuffled away or filed without context like a lost post-it note or scrap piece of paper thrown into the junk drawer of my sentient file cabinet.<o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><o:p> </o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;">The real reason I stopped writing is this blog became a chore. The tremendous amount of joy it brought to me imagining you reading these words in your future life was overcome by the amount of work and tasks and overwhelming issues of the present. I had to pare down and eliminate all those excess things in life, and unfortunately writing made the chopping block. I probably should have found other things to drop from my life, but, when you are beset with just the challenges of living and surviving from day to day, you do what you have to do.<o:p></o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;"><o:p> </o:p></p><p class="MsoNormal" style="-webkit-text-size-adjust: auto; font-family: Calibri, sans-serif; font-size: 11pt; margin: 0in 0in 0.0001pt;">But one thing I learned from your Grandpa Leo: It is never too late to start again. And so I will try. The words and the feelings and most importantly the love for you are there. They never really left. Perhaps now I will find the time, and make the time, to illuminate and enlighten through this blog once again. 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To my son Tommy,<br />
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The picture to lead off this post is a picture your Great Uncle Sean posted about 4 days ago. It is a double rainbow in West Virginia where he is staying to care for your Great Great Aunt Sheila Melzac, nee Downey. The rainbow is said to have been shown to Noah after the flood. The rainbow is a symbol of a promise from God that he will see us through storm.<br />
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Last night, around 10:30 pm on March 6th 2020, we got word from Uncle Sean that Aunt She had passed away. She had been struggling the past couple weeks and was on hospice care for the last week. She had the blessing of her nephew coming up from Louisiana to stay and help tend to her as she carried her cross to her final destination.<br />
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You had already gone to sleep, so I was struggling with when to tell you. Do I wake you? Do I tell you in the morning? Do I wait till after your basketball game? But you got up about 30 minutes after I got word, complaining of a bit of a stomach ache from all the ravioli you ate. I have always been straight and direct with you and I constantly preach to you that is how you handle a situation, so I told you then. You slept in my bed for the night, with a couple tears in your eye and whimper in your breath.<br />
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You asked me last night, "Why, Dad? Why do people have to die? Aunt Sheila was a good person. We all loved her so. Why?"<br />
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The technical reason was she was old. If I have my dates right she would have been celebrating her 90th birthday this November 4th. Her cancer and the treatment that lead to its remission took its toll on an old body. I don't know if it had came back anywhere in her, and I am not sure the powers that be in the medical world will even bother to look. Doesn't make much difference. Her bones had become brittle in the last three months and she was in much pain with her spine.<br />
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The deep true answer is that everyone dies. It is the whole plan, an integral an inevitable part of the system of life. From the day we are born, we begin getting one day closer to our death. Downeys have always been keenly aware of this and even embraced this as a fact dealing with it mostly through our faith. Neither answer does anything to heal the hurt and grief and sometimes even anger and guilt inside when we lose a loved one. My solace can be found somewhere in this prayer.<br />
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Lord Jesus, our Redeemer,<br />
You willingly gave Yourself up to death so that all people might be saved and pass from death into a new life.<br />
Listen to our prayers; look with love on Your people who mourn and pray for Sheila.<br />
Lord Jesus, You alone are holy and compassionate; forgive Sheila her sins.<br />
By dying You opened the gates of life for those who believe in You; do not let Sheila be parted from You, but by Your glorious power give her light, joy, and peace in heaven where You live for ever and ever.<br />
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I explained to you that life on this Earth is not the ultimate destination but just a stop along the way. We talked about our family trips and how we stop to get out of the car, stretch our legs, and grab a bite to eat. Then we continue on to the ocean to meet our family and loved ones who got there before us and await those that got a later start.<br />
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It has been a rough five or six years in the Downey family. We lost your Great Great Aunt Jule in February 2015. We lost your Great Grandpa Leo in March 2015. We lost your Grandpa Leo in March of 2017. We lost your Great Grandma Jeanne in Aug of 2017. We lost your Great Aunt Debbie in May of 2018. We lost your second cousin Lucy in June of 2018. This lists gets amazing large if we extend the years or to our other sides of our family and their extensions. I am not even sure this list includes everyone for the Downeys in the past half a decade. You have seen and grieved the passing for many.<br />
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Yet still we march on and celebrate the circle of life, welcoming new additions like your baby twin sisters and your second cousin Violet. Just like the rainbow your Great Uncle Sean posted, it is a promise in our future and a symbol of God's love for us even as we carry on with the sorrow for the loss of those we loved before and continue to love. Remember, they are always in our memories and our hearts and in our souls, and, if we calm ourselves enough, we can feel their presence in the room with us as they watch over. Rest in the peace of Christ, Sheila Theresa Melzac nee Downey.<br />
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Sincerely with love from your dad,<br />
Leo<br />
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Leo Downeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11098341844131756739noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3438662798947859408.post-55511076700387833102019-12-23T06:03:00.002-05:002019-12-23T06:03:26.746-05:00The Thought That Counts<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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First and foremost is how bah humbug I have been this Christmas season. I just can’t find the spirit and tend to bring down the rest of the family in the most Grinchiest of ways. </div>
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Second, you are on Christmas break and do not have school today. You have no set bedtime tonight. I however have work. Now usually this does mean some benefit to me as I can sleep in an extra hour because I don’t have to wake early to get you ready and commute into school and then back to work.</div>
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Third, you have a large rock collection of unusual and semi precious stones. Your internet searches on these rocks have produced both sound geological science and classifications, but also new wave folk lore on the power and meaning behind certain stones.</div>
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So with all that understood ... your big heart and kind concern wants to change my admittedly depressed attitude despite my warning that YOU are never responsible for someone else’s bad attitude. So last night ... you secretly taped a bunch of stones to the bottom of my pillow. Mostly quartz in hopes that their “powers” would somehow heal my aura. You also kept checking on me as I tried to lay down. About two hours after I got to sleep, I felt a rustle as you decided to sneak in bed with me because you thought it would help. </div>
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In theory: I have a loving thoughtful Pollyanna of a son who wants desperately to help his father find Christmas.</div>
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I was not allowed to go to sleep in a timely fashion as my pre-teen with no bedtime annoyingly checked on me every five minutes as I tried.</div>
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I was awoken multiple times throughout my sleep, once when you “snuck” in bed and throughout the night as you rolled around and once, right as I finally got in a deep and restful piece of sleep, with a swift kick to my testicles.</div>
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The final awakening was caused by an amazingly loud passing of gas that startled me so bad I awoke confused wondering if I needed to run upstairs and make sure your Grandma Roro had not fallen. </div>
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It is now 5:45 AM and instead of sleeping in I have woke earlier than a school day because who can sleep in that stench!</div>
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As I ready myself for an early work day, what comes to mind is the oldest and wisest of Christmas traditions and saying. “It is the thought that counts!” Somehow through that debacle last night, I have found just a little bit of Christmas. At least I sure am going to fake it because who knows what your next attempt will include. I could wake up to an egg nog water boarding session while you try to shove candy canes up my backside. Now get the rocks out of my effing bed!</div>
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Merry Christmas!</div>
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Sincerely with love from your dad,</div>
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Leo Downeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11098341844131756739noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3438662798947859408.post-59781870866951410072019-06-26T23:30:00.000-04:002019-06-27T07:53:32.984-04:00Camp 2019 Letter Three<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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To my son Tommy,<br />
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It is Wednesday 26 June 2019 as I write this letter. I took a day off from writing you because I figured you might be getting too many letters that take away from your camp time. I know Mommy wrote a letter or two and so did Roro and your Bwama. Even your Great Great Aunt Cindy is going to write you.<br />
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Yesterday the camp nurse called. Turns out you are allergic to horses. Who knew? Honestly we didn't even consider it. Here is a picture of you on a little horse (or maybe it was a pony) when you were younger. No issues that I remember from that day with any of the barnyard animals. But this time you broke out in hives.<br />
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During the incident, the nurse asked what it felt like the last time you needed EPI. You said it felt like this. You never needed an EPI pen injection (knock on wood) in your life so far. We were close once when you tried beef and ran you to the emergency room, but even then we dosed you with benadryl and made it to the ER before having to give you the EPI pen. Be careful with the dramatic flare. Administering an EPI pen means a definite trip to the hospital and probably "game over" for camp. So don't go for the sympathy drama. Sure it nice to have someone show you that concern, but unintended consequences await down that path. The nurse (who is most excellent) gave you a couple chewable benadryl and kept you with her and you cleared up in an hour or so.<br />
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The silver lining (other than you being okay and learning that you are allergic) is that your mom got report on you. The nurse said, as far as home sickness or such, that you are having no problems. You seem to be adjusting and having the time of your life. Sorry you can't ride anymore while you are there, but I imagine you will still find plenty of fun things to occupy your time. Make the best of it!<br />
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Sincerely with love from your dad,<br />
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Leo Downeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11098341844131756739noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3438662798947859408.post-29626941429165625072019-06-24T22:05:00.003-04:002019-06-24T22:05:49.607-04:00Camp 2019 Letter Two<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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To my son Tommy,<br />
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It is Monday 24 June 2019. As I write this letter, it has been just over 30 hours since we sent you off to camp. Mommy is itching to call the camp nurse and make sure you are doing okay. Not sure how much longer she can hold out. Mommy wrote her own letter today and just mailed it. Mine will go out tomorrow and probably get to you a day later. I figure by Thursday at the latest.<br />
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Anyways, typical dad thinking, I figure no news is good news and you are adjusting well. They will call if there is a problem. Otherwise, I can wait for the full after report when you come home. But I do miss you. Zoe dog does too. Look how pathetic she looks with no one to cuddle with at night. Okay the lighting sucks on the picture but she really does mope at night. Plus she can't write letters to you to make herself feel better. She has been extra cuddly with Mommy to make up for missing you.<br />
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It is funny what you think about when you miss someone. I was driving to work today and a Bob Marley song came on the radio. It made me think of all those drives to school where I introduced you to some of daddy's music. I pictured you waking up from your bunk and going on your cabin porch and seeing a couple birds tweeting away at you. Made me smile. If you get lonely, sing the Three Little Birds song, and think of our time together, and smile and know it will happen again soon. Then go back to enjoying your new friends and adventures.<br />
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Of course, you are never really alone. Your Grandpa Leo is your acting Guardian Angel and there with you. He is used to that camping stuff. Of course when he did it he had machine guns, and tanks, and half-tracks, and a full Army support element. But if the song doesn't make you feel better, say the Guardian Angel prayer.<br />
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Don't forget to wear your sunscreen and bug spray. Keep your hat on when you can. Drink lots of water.<br />
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Sincerely with love from your dad,<br />
Leo<br />
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I am writing this letter on Sunday the 23rd of June 2019, though you will probably get this letter Tuesday or Wednesday. Today, we dropped you off at Camp Puh’tok for
two weeks. Just last night you were already lamenting (that means feeling bad
about) that camp weeks are not full weeks and you won’t get 14 days there. Just
think, you hadn’t even completed your first night and you already wanted to stay
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After we left you at your cabin, with a whole ton of
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their baby boys. As for your old man… well I know you will be alright because
you have already grown into such a fine young man with a kind heart and a good
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Turns out the Morales family, Mr. Joe and Mrs. Brooks who
you have met a couple times, are sending their daughter Iszy there next week.
She is heading into the eighth grade next year, so she will most likely be in
your cousin Ryan’s group. It is her first time as well. Try to say hi and make
her feel welcomed and show her the ropes. You will be a seasoned veteran with a
full week under your belt by the time she gets there! I think Mommy wants to send you her picture, so you can keep an eye out for her. She might include it in this letter, or she might write one herself.<o:p></o:p></div>
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I love you. I miss you already. Try to remember everything
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<br />Leo Downeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11098341844131756739noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3438662798947859408.post-52246633818655597802019-01-05T10:58:00.001-05:002019-01-05T11:03:13.054-05:00Constant<div style="background-color: white; caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px;">
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To my son Tommy,</div>
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You have been in this world for a decade now (tomorrow). During the past ten years, things have changed, as most things do. </div>
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People have come and gone from our lives. We have grieved those losses, thankful for the blessed time we had with them. We have embraced those newcomers, such as your baby twin sisters and the joy they give. You have become a big brother and a great one at that!</div>
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You have grown so much. Physically, you have come so far from the baby I held to become the handsome young lad before me. You have learned so much, not just in school, but in life; Not just in your brain, but in your heart. Your interests have changed from Sesame Street and stuffed animals, to YouTube stars and nerf guns, with stops on a million different flights of fancy along the way.</div>
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Last night, after baking some cupcakes with your mom, you came upstairs to the nursery where I was half asleep on the couch watching your baby sisters. I pried open one eye and asked you how the baking went. You came over as you said "Good" and then proceeded to lay right on top of me and wrap your arms around me and snuggle. It has been a long time since you snuggled with me. I thought the changes in your world, the ten years of hard knocks, may have precluded a snuggle session with your daddy. Sure you snuggle with your mom all the time, but mommies are easier to snuggle with, as is evident by the picture of you and your mom snuggling this morning.</div>
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I smiled with my lips and deep in my heart and said, "I love you. And I am so proud of you. You are a good boy, a good son, a good brother, and a good person."</div>
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You replied, "Even when I forget things?"</div>
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You forget many things, as ten year old boys often do. I spend much of my parenting life reminding you of those things and I usually end my chastising with "Try to do better next time" as I whisper in my head to myself "Try to be patient and remember to praise when he does remember next time."</div>
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I responded, "I will always love you and you make me so proud, even when you forget. And no matter how big you get, you will always be my baby boy"</div>
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You snuggled tighter and said, "I know." My heart lifted even more. You see, my son, though they say "The only thing in life that is constant is change" and the years have brought us plenty of change, there is one more thing that is constant and only changes by becoming greater and greater beyond imagination. That, my dearest Tommy, is my love for you and your mother's love for her baby boy. Happy birthday. I hope tomorrow is a great one!</div>
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Sincerely with love from your dad,</div>
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Leo Downeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11098341844131756739noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3438662798947859408.post-79821842900675388352018-08-19T00:45:00.000-04:002018-08-19T01:01:45.068-04:00Welcome The Twins<div style="caret-color: rgb(69, 69, 69); color: #454545; font-family: UICTFontTextStyleBody; font-size: 17px; text-decoration: -webkit-letterpress;">
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On July 24th of this year, we welcomed your baby sisters into this world. The girls have given us a full plate with a a TAPS scare and a long NICU stint and I am at the hospital with one now while you and Mommy are home with the other. But hopefully tomorrow, Eileen LuAnn Downey will be released from the hospital to join her recently released identical twin sister Rosemarie Jeanne Downey and the rest of the family! As you can tell by the picture, Ilee and Rosie are going to be a handful!</div>
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Leo Downeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11098341844131756739noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3438662798947859408.post-26588127911062806912017-12-20T15:17:00.000-05:002017-12-20T15:17:27.306-05:00Bah HumbugTo my son Tommy,<br />
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I write this letter to you today to explain what can happen. I don't say it will happen. I don't say it should happen. I don't say it shouldn't happen either. Everyone deals with grief in their own unique and personal way.<br />
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The holiday season has hit me hard. I am a real "bah-humbug" and have not experienced any of the joys of the holiday season. I mope around and have little to no joie de vivre straight across the board. I am cranky. I am depressed. I am withdrawn. None of which is fair to your mother or you. Any glimpse of normalcy is a simple facade and consist of going through the motions. But I find that facade harder and harder to muster. And I am aware, which magnifies the previous symptoms by a factor of ten and the shame for my present being by a factor of one hundred.<br />
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I get asked constantly, "Are you ok?" and I want to scream "Hell No!" but I don't. I smile and nod and say okay. But in my heart it feels like everything is wrong. The state of the world and this jackass disgrace playing President doesn't help much either. Plus work is like sliding down a razor blade into a vat full of lemon juice. But honestly, I used to be able to handle most anything the world threw at me, and handle it in stride. I would throw on a Jimmy Buffett tune and find some comfort among my family and friends. Now, I escape into an online chess game hoping that figuring out a checkmate will occupy my mind enough to give it a reprieve from all the rest.<br />
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I have no bandwidth for anything anymore. My mind is constantly awash with grief of loved ones loss. And evidently this retreat from life is a coping mechanism. Combine that with my zombie like stare and my IDGAF attitude that has made me stop worrying about things like my diabetes or weight and such. Add on what seems to be an insurmountable amount of stress to overcome the simplest tasks. Not a good combination.<br />
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The other night at your St Agnes Christmas Pageant, what is supposed to be a joyous event, I had tears in my eye thinking of how my dad missed his grandson's concert and every concert and graduation and such to follow. Your mom says, "He saw it." but lately I have my doubts, which is an odd role reversal for your dad who is usually more the devout believer and your mom who tends to gravitate to more cynical views. I told her, "Tough to see it from Liberty Rd and through six feet of dirt" referring to Holy Family Cemetery and his physical remains.<br />
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They say time heals all, and I suppose sooner or later I will deal better. I have been seeking therapy for just that. And like I said, I am aware and I want with the deepest part of my soul to cope better. So maybe a change will come. Or not. I sure hope so as I feel like I am spinning my wheels in the quicksand of despair.<br />
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Again I tell you this story not to justify or approve of what I am going through or how I am going through it. I tell you it because you may end up one day going through something similar, and perhaps knowing your father went through the same will lessen the shame. At least I pray that it will keep you grounded and allow you to work through it however you have to. Or you may not go through anything the way your old man has. I don't want you to feel guilty if you don't respond this way. You do you when the time comes. In fact I hope you respond much better than I do.<br />
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I usually say you get to choose how you respond to anything and everything in life. This might be the one rare occasion that disproves that point. Sometimes there are biological, chemical, emotional, and spiritual mixtures that just stop even the most self-aware people from doing and acting and responding in what they would deem an appropriate manner. I want to take the high road, I want people to see what life has thrown at me and say, "He was always smiling." But grief came through my life like a plow through a mouse's house, which was not my plan, but to quote Robert Burns. "the best-laid schemes o' mice an' men gang aft agley, an' lea'e us nought but grief an' pain,For promis'd joy!"...<br />
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"Still thou art blest, compar'd wi' me<br />The present only toucheth thee:<br />But, Och! I backward cast my e'e.<br />On prospects drear!<br />An' forward, tho' I canna see,<br />I guess an' fear!</blockquote>
Sincerely with love from your dad,<br />
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<br />Leo Downeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11098341844131756739noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3438662798947859408.post-25378171686526230072017-10-19T10:25:00.001-04:002017-10-19T10:26:30.103-04:00Wage War<div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Your Grandpa Leo used tell me stories about diving underwater. He would tell me that when deep under water, things could go terribly wrong. When things went terribly wrong, after the initial panic, there is a moment of resolve that this is it. This is the final act. A calm comes over you there alone and you think it best to give up and accept your fate. That is when you have to dig deep and find the will to survive. You find you must fight. You find you must wage a battle for your life. And how do you do that? You simply breath. Blow out a bubble, a simple air bubble, and follow it to the top.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Your grandpa knew I wasn't a diver, but he told the story anyway. He often talked in metaphor and parable, most of which I still have yet to decipher. But this story rings true when you think about it in terms of life.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Life will beat you up. You will feel like your drowning. You will feel all alone. You will feel like giving up. Hell, there will be moments when you actually join in in the form of a self destructive downward spiral. I should know. You think, "Nowhere to go but down, might as well not waste time getting there."</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">Fight. Resist. Fight back tooth and nail. Don't give up. Find a way. Wage war! Wage it everyday of your life and fight! </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">But choose your weapons wisely. Choose kindness; Choose love; Choose compassion; Choose laughter; Choose prayer. These are not the easy weapons to use. Getting mean, getting angry, getting tough, those seem like the most obvious and quickest ways to stop your descent. They work, but at a cost. They are not the bubble. They are not the weapons that are going to lead you up and truly save you.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">You know what else Grandpa Leo said in that story. He said when you get to the top, when you get that one gasp of air, make it a big one because a wave may come right away and knock you back down again and you are going to have to do it all over again. And you must do it all over again, as many times as it takes.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: inherit;">As for your war that you wage, the weapons you chose the other day were a couple of couch pillows, and furry friend, and a framed picture of your Nana Jeanne. Not bad choices. A formidable defense indeed. As for me, I need to find my weapons again and use them wisely. For the time being, maybe I can use your fort. Because you my son, are most likely the bubble I need to follow.</span></div>
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Leo Downeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11098341844131756739noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3438662798947859408.post-12942691755384025552017-09-08T20:13:00.000-04:002017-09-08T20:13:55.759-04:00Cheese Hide And Go Seek<div>
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To my son Tommy,<br />
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Despite my best efforts to protest, deny, avoid, and delay ... you now have a dog. Her name is Zoe (though I think the rescue spelled it Zoey) and she is a mixture of the Poodle and Maltese breeds. She is two years old and fully grown and about nine pounds right now. Your mom and you brought her home last Friday. What were we thinking?!?<br />
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For a week you have had to take Benadryl almost every night. The hives seem to be only where Zoe licks you and truth be told seem to be lessening. You have been pretty good about taking her for walks so far, but as a father I have this sneaking suspicion that sooner or later that chore will fall to me more than it already has. You are learning quickly and doing pretty good with her training, though she obviously has had some previous experience and it is more her adjusting to our ways and/or us adjusting to her.<br />
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Daddy is still reserving his judgement and more dislikes the added challenges, cost, and responsibilities that dog ownership brings. Roro seems to like this dog and I think secretly she wishes the dog would come up with her and jump on her lap more. You are in love with this dog. The moment it is away from you, you call her name. The dog however, likes all of us, but loves your mommy. Zoe's first two years were spent with a lady and your mommy has easily assumed the role. And your mommy loves her and has even slightly begun spoiling this little bitch. And Zoe spoils your mommy right back by keeping her company at any hour of the day or night, usually laying right by her side.<br />
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Anyways, sometimes Zoe doesn't pay you as much attention. She doesn't necessarily come to you as much as she should and for awhile I was worried that you would get jealous of the mommy-Zoe bond. But ever the optimist, you have taken to a game of hide and seek, with cheese. You grab a string cheese and break off some and run and hide. If Zoe bothers to seek you out, or even just happens close to whichever room you ran off to, you jump out and giggle and tell her she found you and treat her with the cheese bite and run off again. If she doesn't mind you or find you or come to your calling, you wait a little, then go find her and giggle and claim yourself as the winner of that round and treat her and run off again. Really is no loser in your game with your dog.<br />
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And that, my son, is why I will try my best to put my grumblings about dog ownership away and just be happy for our family as Zoe finds her place among clan Downey.<br />
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Sincerely with love from your dad,<br />
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To my son Tommy,<br />
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There comes a time in your life that you may find you no longer have any words. You will become overwhelmed, numbed beyond thought from yet another tragedy in such a short amount of time. I have reached this threshold with passing of your Great Grandmother Jeanne Kidwell Downey this August 22nd 2017. Unfortunately, the numb feeling in my mind has no effect on the tremendous grief and feeling of loss that consumes my body and has surpassed my muse. Nana Jeanne, may God rest your soul and accept you into His arms.<br />
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Sincerely with love from your dad,<br />
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P.S. Here is the link to the obituary and a copy below with one official correction that I noticed (married in 1945 not 1944)<br />
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The following text is copied verbatim from <a href="http://obituaries.times-news.com/story/jeanne-downey-1925-2017-969125771" target="_blank">http://obituaries.times-news.com/story/jeanne-downey-1925-2017-969125771 </a> except for the marriage year correction and a ordinal correction for your Great Grandpa Leo Jr.<br />
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Jeanne Kidwell Downey is the only child to Mr. Grover Courtney Kidwell and Pauline Stennet Kidwell-McGinnley.<br />
Mom is preceded in death by her husband, Leo Thomas Downey Jr. of 513 Averitt Ave., Cumberland, who passed on March 4, 2015, in Randallstown. She is also preceded by her first-born son, Leo Thomas Downey III, who passed from brain cancer on March 31, 2017, after a successful career as an officer in the U.S. Army.<br />
Mom is survived by her three remaining sons, Kevin Downey from Kansas, Sean Downey from Louisiana and Padraig (Paddy) Downey from New Mexico; and her grandchildren, Jennifer, Sean, William, Leo Thomas IV, Ryan, Chris, and Melissa as well as seven great-grandchildren, Madison, Alexandra, Liam, Tommy Leo, Dennis, Russel, and Ryan.<br />
Mom was married in <strike>1944</strike> 1945 to Leo when he returned from the European Theater of war and was on his way to be in the first wave of the invasion of Japan. Upon the end of the war, they moved to Wyoming for Dad to attend law school and began raising a family of four boys. Dad began work with the U.S. Air Force at Warrens AFB, Cheyenne, Wyn. and later transferred to Ramey AFB, Puerto Rico, where Mom and Dad lived from 1959 to 1973 and then moved to Torrejon, AFB, Spain, until 1975. Mom and Dad then moved to Ridgeley, W.Va., and eventually began working for the Social Services of West Virginia and living in Williamson, W.Va. Upon their retirement, they resided in Del Ray Beach, Fla., and cared for Pauline Stennet Kidwell-McGinnley until she passed. They then returned to Maryland and lived with their first-born son, Leo III. Jeanne was from the great generation, and she lived her life in the faith of God, love and sacrifice for her family and husband through very tough times for the nation and never quitting.<br />
Mom had a great love of the Holy Spirit, and we know the Holy Spirit came to collect her soul on Tuesday, Aug. 22, 2017. May God have mercy on her soul.<br />
Published on August 28, 2017Leo Downeyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11098341844131756739noreply@blogger.com0